Monday, May 4, 2009

scared

its funny. i'm not the most hardworking guy around. i don't 'love' to study. i don't voluntary go to the library. i know exams are in two weeks and yet i still find excuses not to study.

yet all this does not bother me, because i know its my own mistakes.

what does bother and scare me though, is when aidah doesn't study.

when i study and she doesn't, i feel guilty because i know she should. when she's watching nip/tuck, i can't concentrate because i worry.

i worry. thats just it. another sign that i've changed. i actually worry about aidah. whether she can do her exams. if she gets through.

most of the time i worry more about her than i worry about myself.

i wasn't like this before. it was always 'i study, you tak study padan muka la'. now, not anymore.

its annoying. like that thing where i smile at her when actually i want to scream at her. sama gang. annoying.

haihz....

1 comment:

z a r i t h a i d a h said...

ok ok. i'll start studying soon. By soon I mean when you get your arse here to go Sainsburry's! Cepat ah! :P