habis~ and the ranting begins :P

well my exams are OVER!!! hahahahahah!

gila la. dah lama dah tak feel this way. takyah feel guilty about having a LITTLE bit of fun. haha.

feels good :P

of course, the fear of my results will always hang over my head till 28th august (results day).

if i pass, UK here i come! if i fail, well... i'll see you guys for another year la :P haha.

anyway, i know this is kinda random, and irrelevant seeing as to how the only people who would care about this never reads this blog anyway, but right now i wish i was a rocker in phillipines. i'm NOT saying malaysian bands are bad or less talented. i'm just saying in phillipines, its more my type of music. emo with an equal balance of hardcore and pop/easy-on-the-ears. in malaysia, the only bands i can think of like that is Oh Chenta Ku, Avalon's Whisper, and, well, HIX. the other majority underground bands out there that are popular or more respected are almost 90% hardcore bands, or 90% pop bands. so ntah. i like em, can listen to them and all, but if i was in phillipines, i think i would have more fun. i mean bands like Chicosci, Urbandub and Typecast is definitely my cup of tea.

just now syam said i'm not a gig-goer. well, i may not be now la. my reason is cos there's rarely gigs that any bands that i really like would be playing, and i've been super busy. so yes, i've rarely gone to gigs.

but syam, luq, azwan, they all forgot that before, i was more into gigs than any of them. they say i dont support the local underground etc. bullshit. before (except syam la, he's been into gigs lama dah), luq would only go to gigs that has love me butch, and RARELY would layan hardcore bands. in fact, if before i would tell him to listen to some bands, he's say 'kau ni emo sgt la, hardcore sgt la'. NOW, all the bands that he listens to, he'll tell me and talk to me as if i dont know, or as if he's the guy that found them. sheesh. and azwan, well, when i was going to gigs dulu, he was probably at home. coz i dont think he was into gigs sgt before he was in HIX. then again, i wasnt close to him dulu so ntah la.

but anyway my point is, dulu i went to ANY gigs on weekends, sometimes not even with them. i would be the one would buy stuff (cd's shirts and all) and i NEVER called any of them a non-local-supporter. haihz.

the only reason for this post is nothing particular. just i'm kinda tired of luq thinking ''nik mana layan hardcore/nik layan emo/pop je!'' or azwan saying ''ala kau nik?? mana penah nak pegi stay gig? mana support?''. fine, now i dont go to gigs or anything, i dont listen to hardcore 24/7. so? haihz. seriously, wassup with all the judging man?

so ntah la. guys if u read this, dont judge and think i'm just some kid who only goes to gigs i play at. or tak penah support. or some loser that tak tau certain bands. sereal wei. haha.

i know its probably not a big deal, but its just soooo fucking annoying that just because NOW underground gigs are the current trend, and NOW the bands i kinda kurang minat are playing a lot, and NOW i'd consider spending my weekends at home, that i'm automatically some pop-loving dont know underground bands shit hole poser.

i mean, i like pop. so what? i like emo. so what? i like hardcore. so what? i like jazz. so what? (and those who know me well enough would know that i'm not just saying ''i like'' because of one or two songs. i buy the albums. i support the bands. i LISTEN).

haihz. i'm too harsh kot. luq azwan etc never said this directly, or i doubt they even think it sgt pun. its just annoying when its implied, or get teased at me. menyampah. so guys, think la before you judge. i never did any of it to u when u thought a band was ''too heavy, too lame, too hardcore, too poser''. just because hardcore is the current trend, doesnt mean i have to love it. i mean, i like it, but if i dont want to go to a hardcore gig, who are u to say i'm less of an underground supporter? so think first.

hahhhhh the end of my first rant. haha. been wanting to rant for so long. tension :P next post: alamanda parking!

(btw in the unlikely event any of my friends (luq azwan syam etc) is reading this and kecik hati, come talk to me about it. confront me, nicely la :P dont simpan je like we all always do and kutuk behind each others backs. haha. i love my friends (no sarcasm)). XD

happy(?) birthday.

whee hoooo! 21 years and 1 day. and celebration?

nada.

haha. fuck la. exams is in one week. pressure is on. fuck fuck.

meh. anyway this is just a happy birthday post to me. hehe.

but is it really happy? well.. i still haven't decided :)

chiow.