One To Love

since i'm in a lyric writing mood, i think i'll just post up lyric's to Aidah's song, with the original lyrics from a few years ago (with a few minor modifications).

i feel kinda weird putting her ex-boyfriend's name in it and only one of her best friends, but it fits, and i cant find anywhere to put in others like husna or lily. sorry!


this one is called One To Love


In Januray 2005,
I saw you in KDU,
I knew nothing about you,
But I wanted to.

Your friend Kaydee,
She came to me,
She said, 'Hi, don't you recognise me?'
'I'm here with a friend,'
'Her name is Zarith Aidah',
From then on I knew,
You were the one I want.

From then my feelings for you grew,
All my friends and yours,
They knew.
I couldn't nothing about it,
You were with Alep.

But then one day in September,
You told me,
That you and him was over,
A couple of weeks later,
I confessed to you,
From then on I knew,
You were the one to love.

And now dear,
3 years later,
We're still surprised,
We're together,
I told you once,
I'd only write a song,
For one, that I love most,
Its you.
Baby you know its true.
How could I not love you?

Aidah,
Why do you do,
All the things you do,
To make me love you?
I never thought we'd love again,
I never ever want this to end.

Aidah,
When you do,
The things you do,
To make me fall in love with you,
I'm mesmerized, I'm hypnotized,
I'm still surprised,
I wrote this song for you.

Coz my dear,
No matter what happens now,
You're still the one to love.
You're still the one to love.
You're still the one to love.

new song.

so i FINALLY wrote a new song on my own. i haven't written actual lyrics since my song to Aidah, One To Love, almost 2 years ago.

unlike One To Love, this is a sad, typical emo, cry cry, 'i hate you' song.

just like One To Love, its full of lame, straight forward lyrics, with no hidden poetic meanings what so ever.

to those of you who know me well enough, you'll know who this song is really about. if you don't, well, figure it out. :P but if you've read my next post, you'd be stupid to think that this one is about Aidah. sheesh.

this song is called Portrait.


Well it started several years ago,
When I saw what you wrote on your phone,
It was so obvious to me,
You didn't bother, you just went free.
Don't pretend that you don't know,
Don't bother trying to convince me that you're,
So innocent.

All those times,
Those magic times,
How could I be so blind?
Well now, I realise.

All of those times,
They meant nothing,
To you.
Never imagined,
I'd see the day,
I lost my faith in you

You're standing there non-chalantly,
You think anger would make you less guilty,
Oh god, what did you think?
I was mad at you? I'm mad at me!
I hope that it was all worth it,
Take a look at that portrait,
Tell me what you see!
It's what you lost.

Why?
Just tell me,
Why must you pull me into this lie?
Please stop,
Let me escape you now!

All of those times,
They meant nothing,
To you.
Never imagined,
I'd see the day,
I lost my faith in you.

And now,
This charade will finally end.

It's over,
Don't try to cry,
This picture,
Can see your lies,
A snapshot of your beautiful life,
And just like us,
It will burn to die.

penat.

it keeps happening. over and over and over again. one way or another. its like if the problem is not about one thing, it will surely be the other.

funny thing is, somehow it almost always ends up being my fault.

it seems like eventhough its been 2 years or 3 years or 10 years or 50 years, it would still happen. this would still happen. the anger will still be there. the automatic conclusion of the worst case scenario.

it doesn't matter if we've been happy for a long time. or that we didnt fight for weeks.

even a fucked up thing like gossipy mean girls can cause this.

its tiring la. always knowing that no matter what i do, it can't change. it won't change.

no matter what happens, i'll always be the bad guy. the wrong one. rarely ever the wronged.

why? well we all know the answer to that.

ages

so its been ages since i updated. loads have been going on. too many to put into detail but simply put:

-bought guitar hero world tour for aidah's house ps3. and, well, i rock XD surprisingly aidah is good too. managed to start playing on hard withing 2 weeks. i bet she can beat husna now :P

-bought WAY too many jerseys since i arrived in UK. lets see... Man U home 2006/07, Man U training, Man U third 2008/9, England Away, England keeper, Arsenal Third. damn. to be fair the england ones were on sale. on the way: madrid, bristol city, bristol rovers. ahhaha. fuck.

-went to OLD TRAFFORD!! managed to watch Manchester United v Blackburn. it was awesome. nasib baik banyak goals. hahaha. went there with my housemate Nick. stayed with his sister. best gila the whole experience. can't believe i was lucky enough to go there in the first few months in UK :)

-started/finished 2 courseworks. fuck la. baru sampai dah ada pressure. haihz. besides that i still have to worry about BVC applications etc. shit.

-my camera's still busted!!! fuck la. i bought it for a reason!! hmm. i still have the warranty card but i have to post it la etc. leceh. haihz. i better do it soon before the christmas holidays.

-spent way too much this month (as obvious from above). i gotta learn to budget.

-been playing football every week now. thats good. best :)

thats about it now. i wish i could update more but i tend to stop myself from going online too much. coz if i start, i cant stop and thus wont study. hahaha. not so good at disciplining myself :P chiow~

p.s.- oh yea. gonna go madrid in 2 weeks XD lalaallalallala. hahahahha!