this shall be a post for which i dont expect comments or sakit hati or basically, which i just dont give a fucking shit to. it might be wrong, unfair, selfish or whatever bullshit it may be, and i know it is. i know i might be wrong now. but guess wat?

fuck it. haha.

fuck whoever who actually thinks what they think or apa apa.

fuck it if i dont make sense.

i dont give a FUCK.

if i want to be emo and be sad, fuck you coz i'll be emo and sad and it affects anyone else, too bad.

i've had it with idiots thinking one thing when they dont know anything.

fuck it if this is a spur of the moment thing.

but like i said, do i give a fuck?

man i wish i could growl right now. haha. tgh jam growl lepas geram cambest~

i dont expect any consolation or comment for this post. haha. i doubt it makes much sense anyway.

just think of this as a pointless nameless rant.

i wish someone can be in my shoes for once and see what its like. feel how it is to always be at fault because of a year and 3 months worth of mistakes. know how it is to never ever be able to hate someone without having it thrown back in your face. know how its like to say FUCK YOU without ''ala izrin normal la''. argh! why the fuck do people expect me NOT to ever have feelings or to ALWAYS feel the guilt or to NEVER be able to blame someone else? why why?

fuck fuck fuck. fuck you the selfish spoilt judgmental idiots of the world.

like me. hehe.

man i wish i never lose aidah la. if my life is going well and i can blow up like this, imagine how i'd be like if she left me. haha.

kesian keyboard.

surprisingly for once memang this time i'm emo-ing for no particular purpose. i mean there's a reason for it la of course, but no purpose in the sense that i'm not hoping for change or anything or things to get better or worse. haha. ok fine lets leave a tinsy clue about what this is about.

i hate it that whenever something special is going on or is close, then surely ada someone that would spoil it. new years, anniversaries etc. now flying to uk. fuck la. fuck fuck fuck. FUCK.

haihz... i wish i had bigger balls to be my old self la. at least then names or sakitkan hati orang wont be a problem.

then again, that would mean i'll be bastard la. i dont want that. i kinda like being nice.